Do you ever get that feeling when you wake up that you've been here before? It's like you wake up and start the same routine all over again. I was struggling as usual to get my teenager out of her pit and get ready for the day ahead and she just responded with, "I can't do it, it's too hard!"
After I had explained to her that she better get used it because unless she won the lottery it was going to be the same routine every day for the next 50+ years it suddenly dawned on me!
I'm trudging my way through life in a permanent groundhog daze!
I don't know whether it's some sort of life crisis but I'm suddenly worried that I'll carry on trudging through life without making any significant differences to anything or anyone.
That's dangerous because you start to get carried away researching new careers, voluntary opportunities and life changing charity stuff that you can get involved in to pep up your life.
Would I be a good teacher? Probably not, I don't really like kids that much! What about a Project Manager? Not sure I can be bothered with all that! Project Planning? Well I do that now and I'm quite good at it, it pays well but it's just not very exciting!
Then again maybe I should embrace the routine and feel happy in it's familiarity. I know someone who has been through a life changing trauma and I know that some days all they want to do is roll with the mundane routine.
When a school asks a teenager what they want to do I'm amazed when some of them are so focused and sure of what they want. I'm well past my teens and I still don't know what I want to do!
Singer, writer, actor maybe. Radio DJ. Fraud investigator. Work in a book shop or maybe one of those unique shops that sells cool stuff!
For now I'll carry on planning my projects and keep dreaming. I can change them up enough to get through Groundhog Day!
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